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As soon as we moved, my mum got herself an office and worked there, and dad was working 12–16 hours a day. They hired someone to cook for me, who came when I called, and also gave me a crap load of money, for whenever I wanted to eat outside. I was just going to school, studying my ass off, finishing homework, studying a little more, and then hitting my swimming sessions. I was very lonely, because I couldn't make any friends, and my girlfriend from back home, texted me saying that long distance wouldn't work out, and that we were over. So, to keep this shit off my mind, I kept myself busy, trying to find my passion, and if not, at least a distraction. I tried to open up to the few friends I had found, but people just shrugged it away saying “Dude, you're rich, good looking, and have freedom. Shut the fuck up and stop complaining”.

3 months into this, my mum had a stroke, and passed away. I was broken. I had just started making friends and feeling better about life. I had found my passion, in physics, and spent most of my time with physics. My mother dying was so sudden, that my dad, who was a guy I never saw cry, broke down, and quit his job. He told me that we were moving, and that I need not worry about our money, because he had about 20–30 million saved up, along with all of my mum's stakes in companies, along with our family estates back in Europe. And then, we moved again. This time, to Canada, where he started a company and stayed in his office 24–36 hours at a stretch, trying to keep himself occupied. He didn't take a second to think about me. ME. His SON.

This was back to square 1, without my mum. I was decided that I was not going to suffer anymore and made changed to myself. I quit swimming, and spent all of my time studying and reading. I was using physics like a drug. I found myself a physics community, who were basically my only friends. I also befriended a cute, smart and athletic girl, who I started dating. I was 17 now, and my dad was giving me as much money as I wanted. I splurged on tech, weed, her, and food. I was happy. For the first time in 2 years, I was happy. Things were perfect. I had did decently well on the SAT and was sure that I would get into a very good physics program. My relationship was now serious, and my dad planned a vacation to Argentina for us. Her parents liked me, and her dad already told me that he wants me to take care of his daughter with everything I've got, which I would. And just as things looked this good, everything came crashing down.

My dad had an anxiety attack and barely survived. He needed some time and care from my side, which I was ready to give, because he had been through a lot as well. One of these days, my girlfriend wanted to go to a party, and wanted me to take her in my dad's car, which I refused, because I didn't want to leave my dad alone. It had just been 2 days since he was released. She got really angry and dumped me. I was devastated, but my dad told me that I might've just dodged a bullet. I was sad, but I tried to move on. 2 days later, I got rejected by all of the schools that I wanted to go to, and got into crappy state programs. I also took a look at myself, and now I went from being extremely fit to being 20 kilos overweight. I was addicted to smoking weed everyday, and I wasn't even in a good college anymore. My friends also stopped talking to me because I wasn't going out with them and sponsoring all their food.

Now, I'm 19, making the best of my current college. I started swimming again and lost about 15 kilos. I got rid of my weed habit and supported my dad in getting back on his feet. I haven't dated anyone since, but I'm going to make sure that I find someone with emotions this time.

Everytime I feel happy in my life, things just come crashing down and ruin everything. People around me all think that I'm a smart and rich douche bag who doesn't talk to people, but I'm too afraid to go make friends. I think I'm improving though. I hope I'm on the right track and get back on my feet and feel happy again. And this time, I want the happiness to last